Sunday, November 14, 2010

Golden autumn

This blessed, golden season is bringing me back to my self again. It's rained less than usual. And it's been warmer than usual. Weather really can lift my mood.

I'm trying to snap out of a cycle of self-defeat. I keep shooting down possibilities before I try them, and keep convincing myself that I can't do things that maybe I *could* do. Just dealing with uncertainty is enough without this kind of thinking—the combination prevents the thrill of possibility from creeping up behind the uncertainty and just creates a scary void. I had lots of unstructured time today to just think, catch up on my to-do list, and exercise. It was glorious. I though a lot about how much I love learning things, and I'm craving a new learning experience in a big way.

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  1. There is nothing like "unstructured time"....I'm glad you got it!
    Have a wonderful new week!!!

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  2. glad you're feeling better! sending tons of good vibes your way in hopes they bring you just the sort of learning adventure you need. xo.

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  3. Thanks, guys! Erin, I couldn't wait to learn something—anything—so I'm learning some French via podcast. I'll have to test my skills next time I see you!

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